I have sat down to try and write this post at least five times in the last hour but every time I pick up the computer, Grayboy starts pawing through all of my shopping bags causing all sorts of ruckus. So then I stomp over there and scare him away but a few seconds later, he's on the counter knocking things off. Uff, he is the devil cat. He's probably just starting his revenge for what I did to him a little while ago. Haha, ho ho ho!!
Today was a long day of shopping for me. I was up and at it by around 10:30 and I didn't make it back home until 7:00. Crowds really weren't too terrible until everyone started getting off work this afternoon. I was dumb and saved target for one of my last stops. I literally walked in, told myself I didn't need anything from Target anyway, and then I walked back out. I got almost everything I needed with a couple of exceptions that I'll pick up on Wednesday before I head home on Thursday. It was kind of fun to spend the day alone buying gifts for other people. Rikki is at a super fun age right now too so when I was in ToysRus I just wanted to buy her everything. And then I wanted to buy myself the same things because they are awesome!
I'm really excited for you and Grandma to come visit Jordan, Sam, Jesse and I tomorrow. Jesse told me a little while ago that he's supposed to have a training tomorrow night from 6:00-8:00pm. I definitely lost my marbles a little bit. I had no idea there was a training, and the whole point of you and Grandma coming tomorrow is so all of us can be together. Luckily, Jesse talked to his people and he was able to get in on the morning session instead. Whew! He's working tonight from 7:00pm to 7:00am tomorrow and then the training is from 8:00-10:00am so he'll have a long night but he'll get to sleep for a while when he gets home.
Being a law enforcement wife can be really exhausting. Holidays are not easy to spend alone so when there was a chance that I was going to have to be without Jesse tomorrow (and it's not even Christmas yet) I was pretty bummed. Thankfully that all worked out for the best. Most times it doesn't. Jesse is back on night shifts now too. Tonight is his first one. I think he officially decided that he prefers the night shift. I prefer it for it too for everything other than having to sleep alone 3-5 nights a week. I like to think I am a little better prepared than most for the law enforcement wifely duties thanks to growing up with you and Dad while he was a trooper . . . I learned a lot from you guys. But just because I've known that some of these tough moments would be happening, doesn't make them any less difficult when the moment is actually here. My hope is that I'll adjust better as time goes on, or maybe just get a little stronger. Until then I hope you're prepared for my late night calls to ease my worries.
Alright, now that I have finally gotten Grayboy to go to sleep, Booboo decided she needed to sleep too. Look how cute she is right now while I'm writing! Gahhh I love her. But now I must go clean, our apartment is still a total mess! Let me know when you're on our way tomorrow.
Love you!
Rah and Booboo
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Good Evening Mrs. Rah,
I think that you forgot to share a couple of things today, hence as a proud mama I am going to share them for you. First, I am happy for you Mrs. 4.0!!!! I think that it is pretty incredible with as much as you struggle to get writing, with the way you procrastinate, and with the stress that you sometimes cause me, that you doubt your abilities to NAIL IT! I am so PROUD of you baby girl! Graduate school is BRUTAL and not a whole lot of fun most of the time. Whereas undergrad is tough, it is like instructors take it to a whole other level and many struggle to make it through. Good job on carrying your 4.0 into the last two semesters of school. You've GOT THIS!
I cannot believe how fast Christmas has creeped up this year!! I have never, ever been as far behind as I am this year. It seems as though I am hurrying and scurrying to try and finish every last minute thing! I hit the send button a couple of times last night and now am hoping that those things also make it. I made a dash trip to Grand Forks to finish up, and I am proud to say that I have finally completed everything! Well, pretty sure. I just remembered a couple of minor things that I would like to do IF I can find the time.
I feel your pain on the law enforcement wife. I am not gonna lie Rah, it is a tough path!!! I know that you know this as you lived it growing up. Do you remember all of the holidays that we all went alone and dad either met us or couldn't make it at all? Do you remember all of the times we thought he would be there and then he got a call and couldn't make it home? Do you remember all of the trainings, and inservice trips, missed events, and things where pops was MIA? You probably don't remember because I did the best that I could to make things some sort of normal amidst the variables of being the wife of a state trooper. It is NEVER going to be an easy path, and guess what, you and Sam are both on this same journey.
This is the first Christmas that we will not all be together. I hate it! I love sharing Christmas Eve or Christmas Day with you kiddos. I love going to church together (I will go alone). I love having you all in my house where we can laugh, have a little wine, some snacks, and just enjoy one another. I love getting up in the morning and sitting in our PJ's and blankets while we open gifts from Santa. BUT that will not be our reality this year, and to be totally truthful, I hate it! However, I am incredibly proud of Bunky and Jesse. I am proud of Sam who will also be working. And I am totally proud of you too! What matters most is not the day we spend together, it is simply that we are together!
I am so looking forward to tomorrow night with you kiddos and Grams! She is super excited too. We will share some food at Wurst Beer Hall, open some gifts, and there will be memories made. THAT is what matters. So whereas there are some things that may not ever be the same, and there are sacrifices that we make for those that have chosen jobs that require "shift" work, we are still blessed that we have one another. One thing that I have learned over the years is that life is short Rah. You never know when this will be your last moment so you have to make the most of the ones that we have. God blessed us with each other . . . THAT is all that matters.
Most,
Mom
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